Wow! The last 4 weeks have been quite the whirlwind. I can’t believe how quickly time has flown by. Exactly 28 days ago, I was sitting here in my bed, designing Lost & Found 2. Little did I know that in 15 hours I would be holding my sweet boy in my arms. I woke up at 4:15AM with really strong contractions. I started timing them on a handy ipad app, they were coming strong and steady – about 5-6 minutes apart and 45-60 seconds long. My water broke about 15 minutes later and Spencer was out of bed like lightning, getting dressed and warming up the car. I took a shower and made sure we had everything we needed, and then we headed to the hospital around 5:45. We got to the hospital and they admitted me at 4cm dialated. I did a few laps around the maternity ward but the contractions were getting really strong at around 10:30 I was at a 7 and asked for the epidural. The epidural was the most amazing thing in the world. I went from so much pain I thought I would vomit with every new contraction, to feeling all warm and fuzzy and not feeling much else. I rested and napped for about 2 hours, and the doctor came to check on me around 1 and said I would be ready in about 2 hours. He came back 2 hours later and I was ready to push! 45 minutes later at 3:05PM we had sweet Oliver!
He came out screaming and was so alert and bright-eyed (and very gooey). It was love at first sight, and I already can’t imagine my life without him. After all was said and done, I realized how exhausted I was and all I wanted to do was shower and take a nap! Of course they wouldn’t let me shower because I was still a little numb. Oliver was very tired, and we just snuggled and loved on him for the rest of the day. Here he is sleeping on me at the hospital.
We worked on nursing a bit that evening, and the night nurse helped us a lot during the night, and he was just such a good little eater that we mostly got it figured out by the time we left the hospital. In fact everything was going so smoothly and I was feeling so good, that the Dr said we could leave that morning. So we left the hospital around 1 in the afternoon on March 10th, 22 hours after Oliver was born!
Since coming home from the hospital, life has been so busy! Nursing Oliver takes so much time, but I really treasure every precious moment. He has been a really good sleeper, so we are in a good night routine. When he sleeps during the day I get work done, which is nice, but has been exhausting while recovering. I just finished Lost & Found 2 so my workload should lighten a bit and I can rest or take care of the house while he’s napping. Our favorite thing to do right now is to just play with him after he’s done eating, and to take a lot of photos. Here are some of my favorites from the past month:
My heart melts just looking at these pictures. He has already started to grow grow grow, and I try to just enjoy him in the moment and not stress about him getting big. My life will forever be changed by this sweet little boy who made me a mother. I couldn’t have imagined how much I would love him, or how every time I see him or hold him my heart leaps out of my chest. He is my sweet little boy, and I am so blessed every second of every day.
In addition to all the hundreds of photos we have taken, we had an adorable photographer – Lindsey Erickson – come and do a photo shoot. She got so many adorable photos of our cute little guy, here are a few of my favorites:
Too cute for words! Thanks Lindsey for the beautiful photos that we will cherish forever. If I could have one wish right now it would be that I would never forget how perfect and small Oliver is at this moment and that I can always remember how it felt to welcome his tiny soul into our lives. I didn’t know how it would feel to become a mom… I wondered how it would change my life, and I thought that I might be a different person because of it. But I’m not different at all, if anything I am more who I was before. What I feel now is PURPOSE. I feel like the same me but with more purpose than I’ve ever felt in life. Like every role or job in my life has been selfish to some degree, and now my life has ceased to be about me, and has become about a much greater plan with much greater rewards. I am loving every moment that our little family spends together and hope that I can cherish these moments and forever look back on this incredible time in our lives. Thanks for sharing in our joy.